itchy fingers, itchy heart

been really itchy for a piano lately.. when i'm back at home, i can play the piano anytime i feel like it. when i suddenly feel like playing a song, or when i have nothing to do, or when i'm feeling sad, the piano is always there for me. but here.... haiz... my fingers are really itchy ar... then that day i thought about buying a keyboard. would prefer a piano except it's way too expensive, too big for my room, and also too loud.. so wanted to buy a keyboard/electric piano (it has to have 88 keys. dun like the small keyboards. cant do anything on it. hehe) just now i went on Trade Me (an online auction for new zealanders) and found a Roland digital piano. it straight away caught my eye cuz of some *ehem ehem* reason, but it was still a pretty good d.piano and it was only bout $305. however, the seller was in auckland and it was requested for the buyer to pick it up himself. how was i supposed to do that?

then........... i found this really beautiful keyboard/synthesizer bout $625! it also comes with carry case, full user manuals, foot switch, cross stand and memory card. and it has full-size weighted keys, beautiful sounds incl grand pianos, organs, brass. that's pratically like a piano only cheaper and with more options!! got my heart really itchy for it!! and the seller is from christchurch so there would be no delivery fee and i could even try it out! n the original price was bout $4000 sth.. n other ppl bought it for bout US$1900. so isn't that a real cheap deal for me?? really really itchy now!!!!! i wan it i wan it i wan it i wan it!!!!!!

have you ever had the feeling that you wanted something so bad that you can't think of anything else? like that thing was made for you and you are supposed to have it? and that you would do anything to get your hands on it? that's wat i feel right now.. i would give anything to be able to own that keyboard/synthesizer....

God, can i have that? pls God.. pretty pretty pls.....